if....

when d visions around u bring tears 2 ur eyes n all dat surround u r secrets n lies....il b ur strenght,il gv u hope..keeping ur faith when its gone....

d 1 u shud call was standing here all along...

n i wil take u in my arms n hold u rite whr u belong...
n i promise u won make u hurt anymore...
only if i cn b true to myself...*sigh

take time to realize
dat ur warmth is crashing down on in...
take time to realize dat im on ur side...didnt i tel u??

but i cnt spell it out 4 u...no,its nvr gonna b dat simple....
if u juz realize wut i juz realized...then we wud b perfect 4 each other n nvr find anothr
juz realized wut i juz realized
we'd nvr hv 2 wonder if we missed out on each other now
take time to realize

its not alwiz d same...no its nvr d same if u dun feel it too
if u meet me half way, it cud b d same 4 u
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
missed out on each other now

realize,colbie caillat

erm.....

what is love n what is lust????n what is their boundaries???
aku tau,slh satu sebab perkahwinan adalah untuk menghalalkan hubungan antara laki n pempuan..i did realize it..n ddint denied it at all....

tp kan,stil,wut if love n wut is lust???
wut if lust come first b4 love???npe most of guys judge girls base on their figure???
n nape moz of girls judge guys based on innerself???
tipu la klo korg x judge a book by its cover....kite mestila nk tgk pe yg mate kite sdp tgk kan....me,myself pn admit mende tu..n to b honest, ak pn pnh gak judge ppl on d surface jek...quite smtms gak nk realize wut i did was wrong....now, juz knl je sume org n try 2 learn them better....then u will wonder how special they cn b..n how they affect ur opinion bout life.
for me la kan,wut u get is reflected on wut u gave..if u r a warm person,ppl wcn easily smile at u....bt if u afraid 2 smile, ppl wont smile at u...its nice 2 smile kan....even to strangers...

back to d topic....how we differentiate love n lust...tipu la klo korg kapel tp x pnh rs nk hold hand or rs nk hug ur love one in ur arms n hold them tight....is it love???holding hand,hugging,kissing???its a way 2 show love but wut is d definition of love exactly????wut if u cnt c each other..like long distance rltnshp???how u show love???u gv a call,msg evry day...it shows attention...its x love...
yeah,iv been thru long distance rltnshp b4...for 3 years, n it end up bad bcoz he cheat on me...he keeps tellng me he is still loves me..but,if u realy love sm1, u won cheat on her laaa...myb,guys mmg xle long distance rltnshp kot???coz my previous rltnshp [ both r long distance], guys yg byk lies....pas2,bg alasan jauh...wtf.u did realize d distance b4 u guys approach me n now u make it as an excuse...lame.....
let say,love come wit lust....dat means, once u love, u bcome lust????hahaha...cm stupid jek assumption tuh...xkn la love tu base on lust je kot...
n wut if lust came wit love???ni lagi r cam haram....bcoz of lust,u love her???hahahaha

ntah r......hv no idea....
still thnking n thinkin....myb if i knw d boundaries,then il find love back....
rite now...im realy out of love...love cn wait....
life cant...heheheh

so,quote of d day
live ur life to d fullest.....

adios
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its april fool

nape bl 1st april org called it april fool???
i stil dun get it..dah bertahun2 ak pk.....
harus ade ke 1 hari unt memperbodohkan diri sendiri dan org len ngn prank yg ntah pape..n bl wat smthng overboard, ppl use april fool as an excuse...cian kt april,x psl2 kene jadi kambing hitam...
npe org ske sgt prank ppl???i knw,ppl do needs jokes....but not a silly one...
m i taking diz too seriously???i juz cant get it y...tu jek...
everythng shud have reasons..nape die leh jd camtu....ni x psl2 de april fool...plik2...
yg ak plik skrg ni, cm ntah pape hari2 yg plik2 ak dgr...
laz month kot,ak dpt msg psl frenshp week...erk...as long as i concern,i juz knw bout frenship day...
ni pn satu lg yg aku x paham...we shud appreciate our frens every single moment...bukn bl 1st august baru nk appreciate n forward msgs [yg mn ak akan dpt msg yg same byk gile]
i stil thnk my frens coz forwarding d msgs but stil,korg ni ingt ak sethn skali jek???isk3...sadisnye klo btl korang ingt aku sthn skali....
its not sincere guys...4 me la...frenship shud goes on in every single minutes in our heart.smtms we trapped in out own stuff n cnt hv suitable time nk contact org2 yg bgelar kawan ni..as a fren n org yg ade kawan, aku pn x harap pn kawan aku duk msg 24/7....as long as we appreciate their presents n themself is enuf.....n of coz la,they cn accept me n d way i m...[backstabber..back off]
psl valentine's day pn same...hey guys,we love everyday,no need special day 2 gv ur loves one present laaa...love shud b constantly flow....not only one day n aftr dat juz gone....

mayb this is only my thought....as a gurl, i love smthng real n constantly growth...
not juz in a period of time.....
well,dats only my thoughts la kan....

quote of d day:
don't judge a book by its' cover....

P/S : quote of d day xde kene mengene pn ngn entry...juz another line from my mind.

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bosan2

we tried so much 2 make things work out for both of us but things didnt turn out good.
u juz do well,n il b fine...
if love was a choir, u n i cnt nvr sing coz love is nvr for me n u
if love was an oscar we cant nvr win coz we nvr act our part
if love was a light, then we'l loz in d dark wit no one to hold
love isnt for me n u.....
so y dont u go my way n il go mine
live ur life n il live mine
bby ul do well n il b fine , coz we better of seperated
u know i love u,i cnt denied.....
we did try but it didnt work for u n i....
i knw its hurt so much but its d bez for us....
somewhr allong in diz winding road, we loz our trust...
so, il go away so u dun c me cry....
it kills me so,y don u go??

"seperated ,usher"

quote of d day :
beauty in the eyes of d beholder , one man's meat is another man's posion..