Sunday, January 20

~another tot~

...narrator...:: ekey'z 0 comments
its been awhile since i wrote down smthng in here
laz weekend i was attended a career course which is organized by
EXPEN(educationaal exhibition of usm)
during the entire course, i realize how i change.
i used 2 b very active in course like that.i dare 2 speak out my mind or even throw out questions. but now,there is smthng stoppng me. i ct evn raised up my own hand when i knw d answers...how stupid i turn 2 b..afreaid of smthng i believe.i dun wan 2 blame anyone, but its myself.before i was into sester, i m x like dat.im vry active in class or discussion.i will raise my hands 2 gv any answer,2 ask questns in my head..i dare 2 do all dat.but after smthng dat is ridiculous happen in sester,iv bcame more passive in discussion.
in sester,when u asks 2 many question ppl will cll u "capub"...hey..wuts wrong if i dun understand???n do u care bout my understanding of things???
when i was back in sester, when u r sell urself 2 get wut u wan,they call u "gk"
hello.......if u r so jealous coz sm1 is dat confident wit herself, dun cll them names...its childish n so damn annoying...
in real live,if u wan dat job,u hv 2 sell urself.u hv 2 show every1 dat u r d 1 they need...if u fail 2 do so,u r lost pal...
i dun thnk i will send my kids to boarding school...i think,if i juz stay at my previous school,il b more confident...
i dun try 2 blame d system,but d culture there...
in my previous school,i cn b anythng i wana b...teachers r all great..im x saying dat teachers there r bad but thr is a big gap n we dun evn closed,xcept 4 a lil amount of teacher....
in my batch,we cnt speak out my mind...if i don like u n i said i hate u,then u will be banned...dat is so damn stupid...
dat is juz an example...girls there shud b ayu2 type...if u r out spoken then u r end up like me...i hv 2 years like hell thr....yesss...i tried 2 move out but my parents insisted me 2 stay...
at sester,i knw frens so-called backstabber....shit...
i appreciate frenshp so much coz i realy value my frens...
since that,its hard 2 rebuild my believe in ppl name frens...
4 years i had this bad feeling bout frens..when sm1 tryng 2 b fren wit me,i won say no but i will alwiz had my distance....smtms its burden me a lot coz i do need sm1 when i was so depressed...i hv no one 2 let it out.....
i knw,complaining won change a thng, but at lez,i hv a place whr i cn speak out my mind....n i dun care if any1 read this coz they nvr knows me...

 

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