single???

dah lame aku tak update blog aku ni kan...
arini aku trase nk tulis smthng sbb nye ms break btwn class td,member ak de tanye soklan bez kat aku....soalan nye adalah
"bez x jadi single???"
well,4 sm1 who knows me 4 years,they can tell,i will alwiz have someone there 4 me..
klo bukn as a special bf,at lez, sm1 close enuf...ahaks...
but recently,its a month now,iv been totally single n i dun hv any scandal.....
impress ???yeah...i m..tkejut gak....
actualy,untuk mjawab soalan tersebut...byk aspek kene tgk...
ape yg aku blaja la kan drpd ape aku tgk ngn ape yg aku hadapi....
d 1st thing,r u ready???in wut ever situation,dats d point...r u ready 2 change or not...
actualy,4 lettng go my previous rltnship is quite hard...
ak dah try cam2 sampai membe2 ak ckp,ak dah turunkn ego aku serendah2 nyer...
its been a month ak wat cam2...ms die kt laut,ak anta emel,anta msg thru fs...
ms die blik,i keep on callng him tp die x nk angkt...but i never gv up...
korg byk kan lah,sebulan ak wat cm2....
ak yg slame ni mmg tkenal ngn degil aku,sanggup wat perkara bodoh sprti tuh....
skrg ni rs cam klaka plak...
i thnk,i juz need a trigger to let it go...
n 2 minggu yg lps,i found d trigger...n amazingly,sng gile ak lupe...
its like juz fade away frm me....
ntah r....dats d strange thng bout feelngs...
u cn nvr expect wut u capable of...
i used to thnk he is sm1...d 1 i need...but now,i thnk i m happier like diz....

ak takut nk let go sbb ak takut pasni ak x jmpe org like him...of coz i wont...ppl is unique in their own ways...n ape yg menariknyer,aftr i let him go,totally frm my heart,i cn c how wonderful life is....bunyi cm plik kan...i mean,do evrythng on ur own.x yah bgtau kat die nk g mn,ngn sape,watpe,n etc.....
rs cm bez gile....n u knw wut,i cn handle myself bettter by my own...
i dun need any1 2 tell me wut to do...i cn do it on my own..
dats how i learn dat being single is x a bad thng at all...

tambahan plak,ak tgh busy gile ngn aku nye projek yg tak ciap2 lagi ni...lagi la aku x heran klo xde pakwe pn...n ak pn rs die pn cam2..x heran pn klo ak xde..
so,its better this way.....
smtimes,we nvr knw wut is best for us...

i knw aftr i grad,its hard 4 me 2 find a guy but i do have faith in God. i knw n i believe there is sm1 4me..who will suits me well...who can accept me d way i m n of coz, i also can accept him d way he is...
honestly,ak x pnh jmpe pn org laki cam2..sm1 yg aku x kisah ngn kekurangna die n die pn x kisah ngn kekurangan aku...

aku juz ingin kan kisah cinta yang biase..tak yah grand2...
die bley tgk kekurangn ak sbgai kelebihan aku,n kelebihan aku membuatkn die btuah bsame aku...n aku pun tgk die camtu..
payah untuk menerima kekurangna org....sbb tu ak x pnh percaya pn bl de org ckp dorg ske kat aku...org ckp,org pmpn de sixth sense,,,ye kot,sbb ms mule2 ak ngn pakwe2 ak dulu,ak dah rs mende ni xkan lame...tp aku buat cm2 try nk menghalang perkara seperti break up ni terjadi,tp jadi gak..so,btl la instinct ak dulu...
so,pasni,ak akan percaya instinct aku...
huhuhuuh...smtms we denying our own self n askng ppl for helps...
smtimes it do work..but smtms,we better do it by our own....
k la...ak dah pnt..kul 8 ni nk kene g lab plak....
lab lab lab lab lab lalallallaa